Bubbles

If losing you was easy, it couldn't be a loss. 
If loving me were possible, you couldn't be more wrong.
I've seen the light in your eyes, I've seen the moon and stars.
I've counted in my dreams, every kiss of ours.

Where will you go? 

What could I say?

To make you look this way.

A broken wanting memory is all I have today.

In this life I think I would love to call you mine.

In this life, to see you as a caring, loving wife.

I wonder what the days will be, laying side by side.

In a field of daffodils, the angels give us wings.

We fly so high, up in the sky, neither one of us can breathe.

A broken boy, A broken girl. 

Dreaming heavenly things.  

Dream on

I burn, and I yearn.
I fight this urge upon every turn.
Your face, it haunts my days,
and your voice is the soundtrack of my dreams.
How can you be everywhere?
How can you be in everything?
So many years have set us apart,
and our lives on different paths.
The effect on my life is always the same,
no matter the years days or minutes.
It must be your eyes, how they gleam like starlight.
No, it must be your smile shining brighter than diamonds.
One thing is not above any other,
I'm trapped with loving every bit  of you the same.
angelic voice like a spring breeze,
laughter that can only inspire smiles all around.
a simple touch that can rock me to my core,
and a held hug that....
A hug that freezes time and holds me to you,
in that moment forever.
Knowing you is to be in a dream.
for you are like that dream within a dream,
so ill meet you tonight, when I sleep.

remember me

You can not forget what is never gone.
The sea, and sky hold true this testiment of time.
I like the rest will crumble to dust.
Long after the last forest dissapears into stone.
remember me
 Only in dreams can you feel what was once there.
No more are the soft kisses and hot breath.
The hands upon you are long gone,
Laid  to waste like The great kings of old.
When I'm no longer here to make you feel safe,
 Remember me.

the river

a church boy a good boy with the world in his hand with bad influence, a
step into quicksand. no amount of money or rules stop the stealing for young fools.
 the river the river, come down to the river you will surely pay if you don't wash that sin away
i'll see you at the river in the morning.
 a handsome man an immature man with lust in his heart
makes choices that set him apart
attention and love consumed by strife
and an immature man makes love to those who are not his wife
 the river the river, come down to the river
you will surely pay if you don't wash that sin away
i'll see you at the river in the morning
 a cruel man a hard man consumed with greed and hate
listens to a screaming wife, so irate her eyes are pleading
but her throat keeps bleeding
 the river the river, here he comes to the river
you will surely pay no amount of water shall wash the blood away
your set for hell, as heaven is softly mourning.

eagle river

down by eagle river
 swift silent misty black
i gaze into the water
while the water looks right back
the night it rolled like rotting,
logs upon the shore.
as it had on eagle river before.
 down by eagle river
strong drinks and rusty wires.
we made ourselfs a place,
to light the our nightly fire.
and our chills slowly subsidded,
as our bodies weaved in tight.
 and we held on strong like we'de never see the light.
 with our hands wrapped tight you whispered in my ear,
you brought me from loneliness to find some refuge here,
with your body for a blanket,
and our love burning so bright,
you've found a place where we can be alone tonight.
 and i responded kindly in return,
as i kissed your soft tight hips,
you make me happy, in a way ive never known to exists.
tell me your dreams,
as my mouth finds your soft lips.
far off our worries faded away like our fire in the ground,
giving way to our burning desire.
and our two dreams collided,showering us with light,
no voices to scream at us that this isn't right.
and as our passion slowly faded,
 i traced upon your back
your chest rises steady, as my mind finds pitch-black.
 as my eyes open to morning, I
feel and absence at my back.
and i strain to see you, but only eagle river stares back.

Weep for the Willow

weep weep little willow tree your life is so very sad you never met your mother and are too much like your dad your the first to grow the last to shed and in 30 years you'll be gone and dead your branches once so proud and strong will droop forever more for the death of lovers loved breaks hearts like a sad sad song

zoo tagnrho

Hair of brown flows forth like gold
Men have been driven to madness from such things
your beauty could be the end of all we know
with few men left with stories told
of how they ran for your love to and fro

with a bat of your eye
the great roman empire would bow down
unable to turn you away
fearing the pang of loss would leave them to die
you would be their apollo bringing light to their day

With a strut of your step the walls fall down
what once was a proud man lies crumbled to the ground
no male force can resist
the prowess you posses sits high, a golden crown
i wanted to back down, but decided to persist.

i once thought of trying to forget you,
but in the end i forgot to.

Million fish in the sea

They say i'm only 15
i still have so much to dream
and the letters that i wrote to you
i tore up with a scream
a billion fish in the sea
who says your the one for me

its so dark in here
growing darker by the day
she said come to the light
but i think i want to stay

They said your only 25
your still so alive
and the letters that i sent to you
were burned when they arrived
a million fish left in the sea
who says your the one for me

its so dark in here
growing darker by the day
she said come to the light
but i think i want to stay

She said your already 41
i still want to have some fun
and the time i spent with you
couldn't keep you from your run
a few fish left in the sea
which one of you was for me?

its dark in here
grows darker by the day
she said come back to bed
but now im old and grey

Nights and Days

So many nights spent in shame, so many days spent just going insane.


The world was a spinning darkness, matching my wandering soul.


No feelings ever shared aloud, as my dreams plauge me into self damnation.


But i walk down the road, with a fake smile plastered on my face.


Until a day get a call, from a special lady in my heart.


She unlocked my creativity and will to open up to the world.


My days were bright, as i walked on sunshine.


And then i realized.. oh, it is love.


Ive fallen hard, so hard it hurts.


It hurts... because she is taken.


And after my failed attempts build up i do what i have to do.


I give up, and i ignore to protect myself.

I can get along good now right, i don't need her do i?

But the light, it soon fades out.

And the smile goes away just the same.

My creativity leaks out of my mind, and the darkness returns.

Oh cruel life what am i to do now.

To protect myself ive given up everything i ever needed.

And now your gone, and though i'm not with you...

I am gone too

Succulent delight

Oh shinging pear of delight, Sweet nectar of day.

Deliver unto me your secrets of ecstasy

touch my mind, mine toungue, my soul

with your essence evermore

knowing not your taste, woe es me

what i would give for such a small bite

a mere sample of delight

think not of what shall be lost in bite

but what shall be gained in pleasure

it matters not the time taken

for one can live in mere minutes for eternity

so sweet fruit of fruits, succulent nectar of day

give unto me, my desire for thee.

My asian Juliet

A young romeo, growing up on streets of shame.
finds a lovely girl that he named.
Her hair flows dark and soft
and her skin light but not fair
even though she doesn't resemble shakespears crown jewel.
he dubbed her his asian Juliet

Though he be bold and strong of heart
he can't find a conversation starter.
Walking the shadows gazing upon a window
Listening in to the secrets of her hearts desire
Others may think him a fool
but she is his asian Juliet

Listen in as her music dances in the air,
the strings of her violen chirping; its bliss
the keys of her piano singing; its euphoria
close your eyes and clear your mind
while she strikes the chord of your heart
She is the greatest Juliet

If one day he gathers the courage
he shall speak to her of love.
he cannot do it alone
for he himself doesn't present enough
he learn to use a lasso
and bring Asian Juliet the Moon.

And there love shall entangle like the vines of edan
and runneth over like the roman cups of wine
The streets of shame washing away to gold
whilst the clouds clear the sky for the sun to shine
and their love shall warm the world over
if Asian Juliet can accept such a Romeo

....

should i be betwixt heaven and hell
and not for a loss of sin and desire
i should say that all shan't be well
for i'll be knee deep in fire
as i make for the ninth gate of hell

stand alone

A small girl stands alone
even as she plays amongst fellow school mates
her face lined with a smile
her hands hard at work in the sand
her small feet bouncing gaily
children surround her
but even as outside she opens
her mind shuts them out
because a small girl stands alone

A teenage girl stands alone
even as she prepares for prom
her dress picked with such care
her entrance admired with awe
her date lost in her arms
but even as kisses are shared
her mind wanders away
because a teenage girl stands alone

A working woman stands alone
even as she excels at life
her job of the highest notability
her house spares no expense
her man heaven sent
but even as love blooms
her mind pushes it away
because a working woman stands alone

A small girl can stand alone
and a teenage girl can stand alone
and a working woman can stand alone
but as time wears on as it always will
a lonely woman shall die alone

Hero come forth

A country calls for a hero
a hand signs away a life
tears run down a heartsick face
as sentiment wavers upon goodbye
promises are made intent
though even as spoke they decay
courageous actions bespeak honor
from a country calling for a hero
the only accolade saved for a sarcophagus
a heartsick girl dies inside
while another hand signs away

marks of an age

my life is a dot
and life itself a blank page
i am but a small mark
spawned from the mark maker
a small dot here
beside a line there
an accident perhaps?
one the mark maker doesn't notice
becoming creative with interlacing trace
o what a clever mark maker

mark maker mark maker
keeper of the pen
make a dot for me
and none but me

marked bold are the animals
marked light lay the land
moving marks bring air
marked shimmering is sand
marking high for the trees
marks low for the well
marks of color make a sky
a dot remains alone

mark maker mark maker
keeper of the pen
make a dot for me
and none but me

look around at the trace
the lines and the weave
seeing up close the dark circles
and high high trees
search as i may search as i might
find a dot i have not
for none is in sight
ive been high and low
and diagonal even
but the mark maker doesn't respond to a dot
to small to be noticed
an accident of art
upon a large page

o mark maker mark maker
keeper of the pen
i am a lone dot
make another for me?

amy marie

My garden emmits beauty does it not
i say did you hear me
every section is from a different part of the world
look close can you see
i spent 5 years finding and preparing
all for you amy marie

ive brought red dahli from china
an african violet too
over there are Chamomile from mother russia
and a daisy of blue
even poppies from spain
and its all for you

oh my amy come see my most prized section
beware my belladona it has a killer bite
and can you see the spider flowers of australia
such a beautiful sight
and my rainbow iris from german lands
like you it radiates such splendor in light

i put my heart and soul into this for 5 years
its my gift to you
along with one more small token
my grandmothers ring of diamonds true
this is all i want, all you have to say is
i do

random finds

i search through this place,
The emptiness bears down.
I can still feel you here
Your presence lingers
God how i miss you...
o how i miss holding you in the night
my arms wrapped around you like a blanket
and your body pressed against mine like we are one
me being your own personal heater and you being...
well... mine
come home...
make me whole once more...
come home

memories

the pain hits my gut yet again
i take a breath trying to think straight
but i can't your smell still lingers in these rooms
i walk through the dark enhaling your scent like a cigarette
dropping onto the bed i hug a pillow and take you in my lungs
one small sniff and my head reels and spins
its my own personal kind of heroine

the scratches you left in my back are still raw
and your handprints still visible on the walls
i roll over and my back catches fire
but its alright, the pain keeps me close to you
i put my hand where yours once laid
taking a deep breath i sigh
my hand always did cover yours up
i draw back quickly to make sure it hasn't vanished
, i can't lose the lasts things of you i have left

your brown hairs are still visible scattered across the room
upon the sheets pillows floors and a brush you forgot
your everywhere and nowhere
when you left my days dissapeared and my nights turned into agony
my love for you has turned into a hatred for me
if one day you come home and i am gone
don't bother to wait... its too late

thE forBIdden

a fruit that is forbidden appeals most to the basic wants of man
to taste what you are not allowed to taste
to partake of that which you are not meant to
to pick that, that isn't meant to be picked
it dangles in your face through the long cold days
just begging to be eaten
so you can be warmed with its sweet necter
you sleep so it won't bother you
but even in your most secret place it plauges you
a vision of it sitting before you at sunrise
wet morning dew glistens from its soft outer form
gleaming bright like blonde hair rippling in a cool breeze
its almost as if luscious lips are upon it waiting to be kissed
reaching out you touch it lightly admiring the silky smooth feel
stepping forward you graze it agianst your lips taking in its tantalizing aroma
your teeth extend to nibble a bite but you jump awake
for even in a dream the forbidden stays forbidden
the only difference bieng...
in life you can take the bite ;)

restleSS Girl

movies flash across the screen

new moons rise and fall

a million movies we have seen

a boring night for a restless girl



kisses start and kisses bent

name that state,sliding of the hand

warm touch brings a hard messege sent

fire burns in a restless eyes



nights of kissing touching and fun

giving in to every sin but one

sexy nights always ending by the sun

a restless girl itches for pleasure



at the end of a night time for a fight

arguing about who i am

i give in but soon take flight

for a restless girl is sin



so give up is the answer

i can feel your quite glad

i'm a hidden form of cancer

restless girl needs the world

you know i love you ;)



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