random finds

i search through this place,
The emptiness bears down.
I can still feel you here
Your presence lingers
God how i miss you...
o how i miss holding you in the night
my arms wrapped around you like a blanket
and your body pressed against mine like we are one
me being your own personal heater and you being...
well... mine
come home...
make me whole once more...
come home

memories

the pain hits my gut yet again
i take a breath trying to think straight
but i can't your smell still lingers in these rooms
i walk through the dark enhaling your scent like a cigarette
dropping onto the bed i hug a pillow and take you in my lungs
one small sniff and my head reels and spins
its my own personal kind of heroine

the scratches you left in my back are still raw
and your handprints still visible on the walls
i roll over and my back catches fire
but its alright, the pain keeps me close to you
i put my hand where yours once laid
taking a deep breath i sigh
my hand always did cover yours up
i draw back quickly to make sure it hasn't vanished
, i can't lose the lasts things of you i have left

your brown hairs are still visible scattered across the room
upon the sheets pillows floors and a brush you forgot
your everywhere and nowhere
when you left my days dissapeared and my nights turned into agony
my love for you has turned into a hatred for me
if one day you come home and i am gone
don't bother to wait... its too late

thE forBIdden

a fruit that is forbidden appeals most to the basic wants of man
to taste what you are not allowed to taste
to partake of that which you are not meant to
to pick that, that isn't meant to be picked
it dangles in your face through the long cold days
just begging to be eaten
so you can be warmed with its sweet necter
you sleep so it won't bother you
but even in your most secret place it plauges you
a vision of it sitting before you at sunrise
wet morning dew glistens from its soft outer form
gleaming bright like blonde hair rippling in a cool breeze
its almost as if luscious lips are upon it waiting to be kissed
reaching out you touch it lightly admiring the silky smooth feel
stepping forward you graze it agianst your lips taking in its tantalizing aroma
your teeth extend to nibble a bite but you jump awake
for even in a dream the forbidden stays forbidden
the only difference bieng...
in life you can take the bite ;)

restleSS Girl

movies flash across the screen

new moons rise and fall

a million movies we have seen

a boring night for a restless girl



kisses start and kisses bent

name that state,sliding of the hand

warm touch brings a hard messege sent

fire burns in a restless eyes



nights of kissing touching and fun

giving in to every sin but one

sexy nights always ending by the sun

a restless girl itches for pleasure



at the end of a night time for a fight

arguing about who i am

i give in but soon take flight

for a restless girl is sin



so give up is the answer

i can feel your quite glad

i'm a hidden form of cancer

restless girl needs the world

you know i love you ;)



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star light, star love

As she sits playing with her hair

i watch in wide wonder

she is all that is love

and all that is life

my heart aches for her, to hold her

oh my starlight love



she knows not my name

nor the color of my eyes

yet i forgive her, i only love more

if she would take my hand we would go away

oh hear my voice in song

hang on to those loving words

oh my starlight love



my arms shall embrace her

lost she'll be in warmth and need

yes need, for the security it brings

for the electric love within

she shall know my eyes and my name

and even my favorite thing to say

thought it won't be hard

for it is her name

oh my starlight love



we shall sail the sea

hand in hand

we shall ride in romance

through the water roads of Venice

and in our nights she'll know

that my heart is her new home

oh my starlight love



her eyes gaze up

and see mine toward hers

quickly i glance away

oh dispair!! oh bleeding sorrow!

i am no romeo

i'm but a melancholy man

so i grab my things and walk

i walk away from her

she who is my starlight love

mY loVE IN hate

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my love is an undying flame that burns in your hands forever my heart is a broken instrument tossed into the oblivion of terror my soul is a crushed insect clinging onto anything in hope of survival my mind is a drowning man screaming for the small breath of life my hands are the things that bring misery like the reaper brings death my feet are what push me through the dark unkown that is life my arms are what push me up in vain hopes of glitter and gold my eyes are the portal to the dark abyss of sorrow and pain

yea... i wouldn't love me either




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messege to the wicked heart

lost cold and not well known

you gave me peace like vast wind blown

picked up and dropped once agian

you've left this thing a slave of sin

so i write now a messege to my heart

in the vast unkown where thou art.



your lust for drink and cunt undone

by a soft ray of light, not unlike sun.

you ravage and play and drink so gay

taking virgins and whores alike day by day

and do you do you delight in such things

o by the stars you take such joy ........

and yet now a sudden change for you

by a soft whim from a harlot new



another night another shag

for its what we do, playing syncronized tag

each time means nothing more than the last

but those eyes made my present my past

that touch warmed my aching soul

while we vigorously made oursleves whole

what a tight bossom to make my head spin

and not just from the effect of sexy sin

you've fallen in far to deep

staring now, can't even sleep

in measured time and penny pound

more than a pleasured moaning sound



REJECTED BY A WHORE!!!

what made you think there could be more

for all our glory and all our gold

every night ends deathly cold

she shags on and on with many more

warmed bed and coins galore

i'll not be led by a usless heart

her end will be a start

laying down one last time

time for some crime

watching blood pouring fast

trying to make this moment last

as crimson stains bed curtain and skin

breathe in deep and lean in

sickly sweet words bite into a soul

"you made me whole"



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will you?

could you would you read my mind

i'll leave a mark where you should search

don't take the simple things for granted

for there in lie the most important details



could you would you let me take you out

i'll be a gentleman in all ways

paying for your food and opening doors

don't live in regret

give me just one small chance



could you would you hold my hand

i'll make it easy gently bumping my mine with yours

i promise not to hold to tight

you have nothing to fear

don't leave me hanging out of your grasp



could you would you share a first kiss

i'll be sure not to force myself upon you

but i'll also go most of the way

what do you say i go 90 you go 10

and then i'll wish you goodnight thinking of you the whole ride home



could you would you steal my heart

i'll not make this so simple

my gaurd shall be up for i don't wish to be hurt

but i want you to take it from me

so i'll leave a breach in security

a space just small enough for you to slip in and out